♥ , My dream is you.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

The girls,

The boys,

The family,

The team.

That will FOREVER be.

Those were pictures for ytd outing.
Didn't intend to post everything, but just some out of it.
It's more meaningful though.

And that's the team, the family that will FOREVER be :D
No matter whatever conflicts we have ytd or in the past,
I still love each and every one of you. <3

Went to court,
and AhKel is leaving tmr for his genting trip.

Hope he come back safe and sound.
Will misss you. :)
So, there will be less meet-ups during the Sept holidays,
everyone is busy and there's no time.

Alright, we will gather soon. :D

And for You,
I'm really really afraid that my feelings for You is fading soon.
Or maybe it's still strong.
I don't know why it became like this now.
I want Your love back, this is the thing that I long for.
But come to think of it,
there won't be any chances or this to happen.

Should I go on?
Or should I just let go?

Why do I love you, didn't even want to;

XOXO♥ || 11:02 pm

Firstly, WELL DONE TO Joslynn, Trina, Jonea, Shuting and Yuhling.
For the singing of "I'll Remember You" had made Mrs Iszal cried!
Efforts were paid off :D
HAAPPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY MRS ISZAL! :D
Tcher, you rock eh.

Xinmin pri did change alot,
food there change too.
But nevertheless, had lunch there.
It was great la.

So went out with the family today.
We were all crazy at Sumo house while they were eating.
It was fun laaa! :D
Went to catch 'Death Race'
It was exciting and abit disgusting la.
But it's must watch show.
Dinner at Pepper Lunch.

The rest went home and so on,
left AhKel, Shun and me for pool.
Left Hg plaza around 1 plus,
walk all the way home.
Hope both of you are alright.
Those ppl are so bastards. -__-

Alright, I had nothing to say about.
I guess ppl are unhappy with each others because of what they are alrdy.
If he is more unstanding to certain things, unhappy things won't happen.
And if he knows what we are trying to do behind him, he won't like that tell us off alrdy.
Everyone's mood is spoilt. -_____-
Suppose to be a happy, but a sad day instead.
It make some impact on me la.
But one thing for sure is that,
I hope, this family will FOREVER be. D:

I am afraid that my feeling for You is fading;

XOXO♥ || 2:37 am

Thursday, August 28, 2008

"Girls, I swear we will make it through."

Alright, tmr will be teachers' day celebrations.
Going to sing "I'll remember you'' by no secrets with the girls on top at the picture.
Jiayou girls, we can do our best de la.
Relax and just sing :D :D :D
Girls, trust each other, we will make it best!

Mrs Iszal, Ms Tan, Ms Ang and Coach presents was all done.
Was happy.
Can't wait for tmr celebrations too.

And I've to plait 5 girls hair tmr AGAIN.
I wonder if I wanted to plait my hair tooo..... -____-

I hope everything turns out great tmr,
nothing gonna screw anything :D

I'm too long-winded.
Okay, bye.

I have only got these words to say,
Deep deep down in my heart, there's a You. <3

XOXO♥ || 11:28 pm

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

I don't know what to do, so I came to blog.
Was dam bored at home.

And my Sep holidays is so packed. -_-
What the logic?
It is suppose to be a break for me,
in the end still have to go back sch.
SHAG.

Oh, I plaited 5 girls' hair for the rehearsal today!
I am so great la,
G-O-O-D-J-O-B to me! :D :D :D
It was nice right?
But tired for me, nvm.
I'm kind :)

Shu, time to cherish okay!
Don't be like the past, don't let go.
:D :D :D :D :D

I'm so lousy,
can't even cheer You up when You are angry. -__-

XOXO♥ || 9:38 pm

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Hello blog :)

Monday's training was alright.
But the run was tiring.
I swear I hate running! -__-

Sep holidays is coming.
It shall be another boring one,
everyone will be busy with things and events.
No free time to play and have fun.
Guess I will be rotting at home or at sch. -__-

And does anyone has any idea of a fun place for outing?
Why Singapore is so small?

I hope and pray hard that everything will stay the same,
nth will change at all.
Becos I really can't afford to feel sad and heartpain anymore.
I'm afraid of alot alot of things.
You show me the other way round.
I shouldn't be like this oso, everything is fated.
Just wait, if it's yours, it be will yours one day.

Another 1 more month, should I hold on to it? ;

XOXO♥ || 10:42 pm

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Will everyone be the same when it come to relationship kind of things?
When the person is gone then you realise you should have cherish them earlier.
But just as you realise you should have cherish them,
they have already LEFT.

Instead of a 1 year relationship,
even it is 5 years or so, so many years of relationship,
still, there is someone who is bear to let go.
Maybe its too tired for the both of them, can't give or take anymore.
That's why they ended letting go.
But won't they be thinking that after their separate,
whenever they go anywhere, the things around will REMINDS them of each other?
Or things that they might gone through TOGETHER before?
It's easy for the person to let go who said let go,
then to the person who hears it.

Why must every relationship comes to an end?
Why does people said FOREVER, when they themselves said let go?
Why does people had a change in their heart so easily?
Why people don't cherish what they have and they wanted more?
Why do poeple even bear to leave a long term relationship,
and get into a new one?

I don't know why i type all these out.
It just came suddenly in my head. -__-
Had been thinking too much alrdy laaa. LOL.
Alright shall stop here. Haaahaha.

Sunday is always so boring. -_-
Going to complete all my hws den down to court!

Last, a personality quiz. :D

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

I don't know if everything is true la,
i don't really know myself actually. Haaa.

Alright, change of plan.
Not going court anymore, its bloody hell RAINING still. -___-
So, going to meet Kiamin, Zhenyu, AhKel and AhMao to slack. :D
Byeeeeee peeepos. :D

Can I stop everything from now onwards?
Everything that is going through my heart and brain?

How I wish, I didn't had fall for You.
If not I won't be worry of things.
Shag, I hate being like that.
I hate this kind of feeling.
Fuck all those feeling.
Are you still there?

Will you be there?
IT'S ALL A NO. :C

Forget him, forget it, forget everything.
Julia, from now onwards.

Should I still continue to like You?
I know it's like You didn't said ath or what.
Is all just me only.
I don't know laaa....
I am too naive to believe your words,
is 260908 still sth?
Or just some entertainment again?
It was all along just me only,
so again, I don't need to treat that day as sth.
It be nth in the end.
I afraid that to like you more, cos things might change suddenly.
Like there's no warning or signal.
I scared, next moment, Your picture won't appear on my phone anymore.
D:

And i guess You fallen for her too.
It's good. She suits you so perfectly. :D

And actually you still like him de la, just that you don't want to face it right?
He is so nice and perfect for you.
Don't lie to yourself anymore.
Face the facts and follow your heart.
Deep down you are sad tooo right?

But I still missss You alot indeed ;

XOXO♥ || 1:25 pm

I don't know what to blog about actually.
-____-

Went over to YanShan's house today.
Play mahjong, and slack around.
Felt pressurized playing with his dad. Heh. :D
Was quite sian, nth to do that kind.
Watch qian qui 2 and left.
AHKEL knows how to play mahjong alrdy!
Good job to us. :D

It had been rainning for the past few days.
Hope the sun will come out soon,
esp tmr.
Cos can play bball. :D

You're the answer. <3

XOXO♥ || 2:22 am

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Training was okay.
Didn't go gym, if not my muscles will be double suan.
So, there's a runnning test next week.
Must chiong already laaa.

Went downstairs to have food with Mum, uncle and his friend.
And what came into my mind the whole time there was those days that we spent tgt in Thailand.
And it's like about 2 years back or so.
I misss it, especially the night time.
Feel like going back to the past sia.
I would be very happy if I got a time machine. :)

Omg, I wanna faster get into Sec 5 life.
I don't know why, but maybe I can really really enjoy after my big O's
And I think tgt with Raihan, Atiq and Nadu, we will be crazy at sch.
HOHOHOHOHOHO :DD

There's basketball Olympic later at channel U,
which means, I going to watch.
Btw, today is a very nice date.
20082008. (:
Alright, byeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

And, Congrats on getting into the team.
Must train hard and play your best.
You sure sure sure sure can de laa.
Happy for You :D

You are the one I hope for;

XOXO♥ || 11:13 pm

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

"Afraid that one day everything might be gone again."

Wanted to change new blog skin but not any one caught my eye.
-___-
Shall change it soon.

I pass my Amaths!
But failed E-maths, how nice uh. -_-
EOY is in another 5 weeks or so, shall mug hard and get good good grades.

Tmr is training again,
had to run again.
I DON'T WANT! T.T

Going to watch my channel 8 show now,
Byeeeeeee peeepos. :)

Wish that You are forever there;

XOXO♥ || 10:48 pm

Monday, August 18, 2008

I'm video-calling Carissa in Msn now. :D
LOL. She is a bad girl and ask me to gossip about other ppl. -__-
It was fun anyway. Haaa.

Training was okay la.
The 2 laps outside sch was TIRING!
Did some gym stuffs, was strenuous.
Going to have new t-shirt sooon.
Tcher's day is coming, going to put out a great performance and gifts.

Shag, I still haven complete my homework yet.
Very lazy la. -_-

Nth much to blog about.
Shall continue my video-calling with Carissa. :)

I hope, things get back the same.
But I just can't put on high hopes, I'm scared things might turn the other way round.
Shouldn't be thinking of this anyway, if there is, there shall be.
If not, let it be.

I am still counting on;

XOXO♥ || 10:41 pm

Sunday, August 17, 2008

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSLYNN TAN CAPTAIN!"

Captain!
Thanks for leading the whole team, you've done a great job.
And you made us proud. :)
Happy Birthday!

There's training tmr,
how SHAGgggggg.
I don't want to RUN leh. -_______-

It has been 100 days already, shall I stop counting?;

XOXO♥ || 10:40 pm

I was stucked at the toilet for like 1 hours plus ytd to get my shit out.
-______________-
Wth. My stomach was S-U-P-E-Rrrrrrrr pain.
Shall not talk about this, abit disgusted. Heh.

Watch a match that Pei Hwa against SGS in the morning.
It was quite hilarious though.
SGS won in the end.
Nice one peeepos.

Met Shu, Trina and Yuhling at Orchard.
Walk around when they had done servicing their phones.
And I intend to save money now for SHOPPING!
So many things that I wanted :D

So came back to court,
accompany them for dinner den slack till 11 plus.
Talk about how things are invented and where it came from AT FIRST.
LOL. So many many question markssss to it laaa.
And, while YanShan was having his dinner,
He wanted to call out for the auntie which sells drinks, in the end he got chocked and nearly spit out all his food.
I don't know how he get chocked at first, so suddenly la.
Somemore, he wanted me to write in my blog about this. LOL!

Was a little happy,
it happen so so so so suddenly laaa.
Heh. I was looking at the time, thinking that if Your pic will appear.
After like 5 mins, Your pic really really appear.
Was abit shocked to see that,
but Thankyou. :)
Hope everything will be alright.

Can I not fall for You anymore?;

XOXO♥ || 3:14 am

Thursday, August 14, 2008

我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
他做了他觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
他心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福 ~~福得真残忍~~
让我又爱又恨 她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人 他已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bnj_52qkTT4

I rmb I heard this song from Shu.
Now then I realised is dam meaningful.
It really describe what my situation now.
Shag, -___-
And another song,

MILEY CYRUS - I Miss You.

Sha-la-la-la-la
Sha-la-la-la-la

You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from Heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss You, I miss Your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still ~~here~~ somehow
My heart will let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you, sha-la la la la, I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss You, I miss Your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart ~~won't~~ let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you, sha-la la la la, I miss you

I know your in a better place, (yeah)
But I wish that I could see your face (oh)
I know you are where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

I miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you, sha-la la la laI miss you, I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once and a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go, and I need you to know
I miss you, sha-la la la la, I miss you

I swear this is a very very nice song.
It describe how I'm feeling now.
It is time for me to settle down alrdy.
Just wait, if it's yours, it will be yours one day.
No point whining and whining knowing that it won't be the same anymore.
I hope and I pray that You would come back, but it's really so impossible.
Shouldn't talk about this every now and then, it's pointless.
She must be very very happy now.
It's great then.

Alright, JULIA TAN!
You shall stop thinking or mentioning of this anymore.
WAKE UP!
No more emo emo emo post!
Shall be happy from now onwards.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Oh yah, HAPPY 6th month anniversary ATIQAH! :D
And, congrats Irvin. :)
Lastly, happy 1 year and 4 months anniv dearest, if we are still together.
don't know why I said this, but i once love you with all my heart.
and I didn't know that we will end so suddenly.
I thank you for loving me, hate you for the way you treated me.
Well, it's over now.
And there won't be anything between me and you.
Fuck offfff!

Okay,
TMR WILL BE A BRAND NEW DAY!

Hoping that Your picture would appear on my phone;

XOXO♥ || 9:22 pm

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

"I misss You, I misss Your smile."

Sch was still alright this few days,
don't feel like talking about results laaa. -_____-
Audition turn out to be okay, good one girls.
If we get in, we shall do a better job! :D

12 lotus is coming out tmr,
shall go catch it during weekends or sth. (:
And I went for dental checkup today,
doctor said that my gums are swollen, so it will bleed easily.
I shall brush my teeth thoroughly from now onwards.
Sore throat is coming my way.
Shag, don't wanna get sick this time.

Hmm, I guess there's really nothing for me to say anymore.
No longer got the sad feeling, no longer got the feeling of waiting for your calls.
Things are okay and fine like that.
As long as I still get to see You somehow, it's perfectly alright.
I know You fall for her,
she must be really really happy.
Even though You nvr once fall for me,
but I'm alrdy very happy that You left happy moments for me.
Even though I'm just an entertainment to You, I'm fine.
You are the best thing that ever happen to me for the past few months.

To love You sliently, this is what that is left for me to do;

XOXO♥ || 9:52 pm

Monday, August 11, 2008

Went to Yuhling's house to discuss about the dance steps.
In the end, we only came up with the first few lines.
Well done ppl! (: (:
Is dam hard to think of steps laaaaa.
Shag, wonder how we going to put on a good show for tchers. -_-

Went to court after that,
slack until 10 plus.

I don't know what to say anymore,
seriously, my mind is just blank.
No longer have the keen to see You, no longer got that special feeling.
It just came suddenly, I don't know why.
And I guess You alrdy fallen for her, it's good this way.
There's are thousands and millions of questions that is without any answer.
It's alright,
she make it best.

I'm Sorrryyy, really really Sorrryyy. D:

XOXO♥ || 10:51 pm

"One step front and two steps back."

Went to court for today.
Play and left for dinner at Hg point.
Slack awhile and went back home.

Had a good talk with someone before going home.
Thankyou, cos I know you are still the best to hear me out.

Well, I guess things are like that alrdy.
Feel so not right after reading sth,
it's in time to come thing laa.
What I can do now is to let time slowly pass and wait for miracle.
Maybe by waiting, I can get what i wanted for now.
Or maybe I'm being too naive.
As long as I still get to know that you are happy, it's superrr fine.

And thankyou for ytd.
It makes me happy, even it's only for like awhile.
Even if there's no more everyday,
as least there will be few out of everyday, I still feel happy.
Hoping everything will turns out well, even if that's not what I expected.
I alrdy had a prepare for anything that I might feel it's hard to accept.
But still scared that You might be serious this time.
Every of your words that You told me last time, it's just hard to believe.
Whatever it may come or be happening, I'm alrdy prepared to accept any facts.

It pulls me superrrrr down now.
Cos the nights when I misss You most, You were actually doing something else.
When you are actually. . . . . . . .
Shag. -_-

Wish that you would come back;

XOXO♥ || 2:14 am

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Footies.

Basketballs up in the air.

Their great performance.

Back in the 80's.

Roasted, BBQ-ed, Marinated pigs. <3

Fuyoh,

Fuyoh! :D

One random guy, which happens to be Sharzlynn friend.

Babes.

Rai, Nadu, Ju.

If we will to perform,

we will ROCK the whole dancefloor. :D

Just together, without others. :D

Atiq what?

Naduuuuuuu <3

Another one.

Atiqahhhhhh <3

Looook.

Jason :)

Chella :)

Syahirah :)

Sharzlynn :)

Another one one.

Jonea <3

Wei xuan :)

Fareez :)

Raihannnnnnnnn <3

Ali, the SHORT one :)

JuliaTan :D

Horny partnerrrrrrrrrr :D

Another one.

Yes, Captain Joslynn Tan :)

A Forever Team <3

Leeeeee Yuhling <3

Trinaaaaa Seeee <3

Joneaaaa Leeeeeee <3

She sucks :x :) :)

Another one.

"Finally, I realised everything. It's okay for me."

High School Musical on Ice was not bad,
enjoy myself alot at there.

It was fun though.

And pictures are up tooo.

Alright, after this i will rant and write out everything that I am feeling.

So pee-poos, don't get bored.

Shag, I wanna get a REAL life, I mean REALLY a REAL one.

I'm am indeed having a life now,

but this is not the life i wanted.

Why do ppl have different status are treated extremely differently?

I'm not trying to be jealous here,

why do you treat her better off than me?

WTF logic it is now? -________-

And, ya, finally after today, I decided to let go, a clean let go.

Cos I know, He had alrdy fallen for you.

I can sense it, it's easy.

The feeling is there, don't deny or trying to avoid it.

Well, I guess its really really better off like this now.

So I don't need to think of You anymore.

I know, all along I'm just a type of entertainment for You.

I'm done with my entertainment and You are satisfy with it,

that's the main thing between us.

I shouldn't have fallen for You for so deep.

So dumb and stupid,

I alrdy got this feeling that the end of everything will come.

It proves everything.

Whatever that I'm afraid of previously, finally it had come true.

She suits you perfectly.

I cherish the few weeks, I dam misss it toooo.

And everything from now onwards, I can only keep inside me.

Can't let it out anymore.

There's alot alot alot alot of things that I wanted your answer for.

But I guess, I don't need it for now anymore.

In the end, I still drop tears for You.

In the end, I still have to let go, to forget.

Love her with all your heart, You will make it best. :)

I shall not rant anymore.

Don't want to be an emo emo post.

Whatever it is, IT'S COMPLETELY OVER NOW.

I will move on, of course. If it's fated, it will be.

I wish upon a star, to have all the feelings for you washed away completely;

XOXO♥ || 2:20 am

I didn't know what the fuck went wrong with my blog.
Had to delete the whole thing and create a new one.
So all my posts is gone. -___________-
Stupid shit!

XOXO♥ || 2:15 am

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