"There is always an end when there is a starting point at first."


Both eng paper 1 and 2 is still alright.
Hope I could get at least a B4.
Next coming paper will be Emaths and Geog.

Went to Bugis with LinLaoMei today.
Pool after that.
And I have really no comments for today.
You destroy everything. I wanted it to be auto.
-____-
Alright, I'm coool :)

And indeed,
LinLaoFamily is separating.
I won't deny on this, or keep wanting the family to come back.
Cos if the family is meant to be, we will be tgt on a very day.
If not, just let it be.
All those days that we have been tgt is enough alrdy.
Cherish when it's close, then you won't be regretting when it's gone.
I don't care if it's gone for now,
but the only thing I know is that the family was once to be.
To Kiamin, even if there isn't the family with us.
I am alrdy happy and contended enough to have a sister like you with me :)
I don't ask to be forever, but to be as long as we could. <3

Yup. Today is the 260908.
When two months ago You said sth to me when this day arrive.
But now, I won't treat those words as sth true.
Cos it is nvr true before. And I know You forgotten.
I was waiting, if Your picture would appear on my phone.
But even after 12 midnight, nth came out.
All Your words were just another entertainment.
I made up my decision, I'm really letting go of the feelings for You this time,
really forgetting You this time round.
I'm certain and that's it.
Thanks for all those happy memories You once gave,
thanks for the sad and heart breaking moments You once left.
Everything had been planted deep deep in my heart.
And I promised to nvr take it out again.
Even if I would to choose again,
I still would choose to know You, fall for You and lastly forgetting You.
It's worth it. Because I'm doing what I like.
Everything had come to it's end, and I'm glad.
Once again and for the very last time. nuhsha, I Love You.
Takecare :)




Don't worry, I don't need Your love back anymore ;
XOXO♥ || 11:52 pm

SS paper today was alright.
Except that I didn't really complete the SEQ part.
All thanks to Zhenwei for asking me not to read chap 2 which came out.
-____-
Hope I at least got a passing mark.

Went to court after sch,
play some matches and I manage to rode Kiamin outside court.
So pro right Kiamin :)
I love riding on bike sia, hope that Benjamin brings his bike to court everyday. :)

So tmr will be Eng paper 1 & 2.
Again, I want to pass this subject.
Geog and Physics will be on the same day next Fri,
have to had some memorising sessions soon.

And I came across this blogshop which like advertising their new products,
F-cup tea and biscuits.
http://www.hooshopping.blogspot.com/
Eating some biscuits or drinking peach tea can make your boobs big?
Omg, I wonder what they put inside their products?
Another one was the slimming spray.
http://www.flingk-nicks.blogspot.com/
There was a lot of buyers indeed.
Oh well, all these are so not natural.

Alright,
tmr will be the day.
The day to my final decision.
I alrdy know what it will be like.
Well, I just want to have some confirmation.
And I know, You forgotten what You said long ago.
But I hope You prove me wrong.




Where are You all these while?;
XOXO♥ || 9:36 pm

"I hope we can go round and round without an ending.."


Tmr will be the first paper of EOY,
which is SS.
A killer subject. And I have only completed chap 2 and 3 so far.
I have to burn midnight oil again -__-
Didn't wanted to have a F9 in my results slip, so have to mug hard.

I had been sleeping the whole of today after sch.
Sorry Linlaojie for not meeting you.

Shag,
it was You who first came into my mind when I was riding a bike outside court.
I didn't know why.
I was thinking of You, and at the same time forgetting about You.
So hard.
And I only know that things will be better in time.
Let it be.
2 more days to an ending. D:




Hoping to have a glance of You;
XOXO♥ || 11:18 pm

I don't know what to write.
And I think I will write lesser nowadays.

Went to Amk Hub 'ESP' for Irvin Chong!
Touch mah? (:
But actually is for my fbt shorts laaa.
Oh well, thanks him for the ice cream toooo.
And thanks Kiamin and Zhenyu for accompany.

Tmr is sch again.
And first paper is starting on this Fri.
And I haven even touch any books -_-
BANG, DEAD -__-

Yanshan's chalet is coming.
Really looking forward to it.
Let's enjoy to the fullest!

Alright,
5 more days to have my FINAL decision.
But I was hoping that the day won't ever arrive.
Nvm, I won't hope much and I alrdy know nth will happen.
I still missss you, but I swear the feeling of wanting You to come back has totally gone.
Great start of forgetting :D




I taking out bit & pieces of You each day;
XOXO♥ || 11:19 pm

Didn't met up with LinLaoFamily today.
Went to Kovan for pool with Zhenyu instead.
Bought my slippers and left for court.

Have a good talk with Kiamin at point.
And thanks for listening though.
Don't think too much, things will nvr happen! :D :D

I really missssss the past when it's at court.
So much of fun and laughter everyday.
Misss those times when we get tgt and slack,
those times when we hated crocodile the most,
those times when we talk crap.

But most importantly,
I misss You most.
A lot of happy memories had been running through my head when talking with Kiamin.
I misss the everything in the past.
Yeah, every single thing.
Either it's sad or happy ones.
Even though is just entertainment, I still misss it.
And now, everything had come to it's end.
Shall face the facts and not wanting everything to come back again.
I once cherish everything with all my heart, so now I won't feel regret or what.
Cos all along it was just entertainment.





6 more days to 260908;
XOXO♥ || 11:11 pm

XOXO♥ || 11:27 pm

Feel like cycling suddenly.
LOL.
And tmr is Saturday.
But I guess LinLaoFamily is not going out, stuck at court again.
Nvm, is enough being together.

Went to town with Zhenyu today.
Then back to Kovan for pool tgt with Kiamin. :D
Was definitely fun!
Went back to find LaoDa and LaoSan with LaoDi.
Watch the ge tai, and back home.
Thanks Kiamin :)

It's nice seeing you today.
But at the same time, I feel so not right.
I don't know why.
I really can't deny that I miss You.
Everything had ended, this is alrdy a fact.
Well, I'm forgetting real hard.
Just hope that my feelings for you will fade one day.




; Love is not a multiple choice question.
XOXO♥ || 11:27 pm

"Whatever the future may be, this family would still be..."


And I swear, I fucking missss this family now.
Somehow, the one i really misss is LinLaoDi. D:
I wish we could have plenty of time together.
Not forgetting YanShan, cos he is not in the picture.
Hoping nothing would separate us, hoping everything would be fine for us.
I love you, family.
3 more days to Sat :)

Trainings had stand down due to upcoming EOY.
Sch was fine.

This time, I really need a time machine.
To run back the time when I know that I would not have to fall for You.
I don't know what now.
And I'm really sorry for causing a lot of troubles.
I know You hated me now.
My fault, fuck myself. -_-
I can't love You anymore.




What I wanted to say is only, I Miss You. D:
XOXO♥ || 11:32 pm

Hmm.
I don't know what to write.
But I'm so bored!

Court was full of peopleee today!
Play a bit of matches.
And have a good talk with Linlaojie :)

4 more days to SATURDAY!
Hope that everyone of the family will go.
And let's have TOGETHER! :D

I shall start mugging for EOY.
It's starting on next week.

And finally I saw You today.
Was kinda shock, didn't think that You would come today.
But yeah, I decided to forget alrdy.
So, shouldn't think much about it.
Aiya, whatever.




My heart wants to speak to You, can it?;
XOXO♥ || 11:23 pm

HI BLOG. :D
I'm at sch posting. hahahaha.
Okay, byeeeeeee! :)
XOXO♥ || 11:27 am

Today is the 14th!
HAPPY 7th month ATIQAH! :D
And happy 1year 5months, if we are still tgt ...............

Ytd's CIP was really tiring.
Manage to sell those products.
Can't imagine that I really walked up and down the East Coast Park with Atiq and Rai.
I swear it's was dam tiring.
Legs are super sour. D:
But the way back home was fun :D

Met up with half of LinLao family for today.
Play some matches and left for Kovan to pool.
Manage to play awhile and I enjoy it.
Have a lot more to learn about pool. -__-
Actually was going to play candles,
but in the end didn't play cos it was late alrdy.
Nvm, there's NEXT YEAR :D

Now, my wish is to have LinLao Family to always be.
I'm fucking afraid that we might separate.
I don't want any of this thing to happen pls.
I want us to be FOREVER.
I don't want an END. -___-
Must cherish those days that we have been tgt.
And I hope, this Sat's outing will still be on.

Alright,
i swear, forgetting is dam hard.
And I swear it's killing.
But I'm really trying my very best.
I've decided, and I'm really going to follow my decision this time.
I can't expressed the love I had for you,
and I can only keep deep deep down inside and nvr take it out again.
And I really don't know why,
but I have been wanting to apologise to You.
I'm very sorry but I don't know why.





You are the problem, yet only the solution;
XOXO♥ || 11:43 pm

I don't want to do homeworks.
Esp for MATHS! -__-
Thanks ah, Ms Normala :)

Another week had past.
It means that EOY is getting nearer and nearer.
Shall start on my revision alrdy.

Tmr will be doing CIP at East Coast Park.
For 8 hours straight.
So, that's it for my Saturday.
When actually I can go out and have fun....

Oh yah, congrats to my LinLaoJie! :)

I've make a decision.
I'm really giving up after today.
Cos I know everything won't come back anymore.
Shouldn't be so dumb.
Alright, it's fine.



Trying my very best to;
XOXO♥ || 10:33 pm

I wanna watch 4bia and Boys over flowers.
Hope tmr's plan for 4bia is still on.
:)

Or not, have to like stuck at court again?
Nvm...
As long as there's fun.

And today at court was fun eh.
We like were shooting Nicklaus non stop.
Court was full of our noises. LOL!
Play quite a bit of matches.
Was sweating like.....

I have nothing to say anymore.
Just waiting and hoping.
I wish, I wish, I really wish that everything could come back.
:C



''Takecare'';
XOXO♥ || 11:06 pm

My blog was being spam.
-_____-
WTF eh.
To all those spammers, if anyone of you is very not happy with me.
Just come up to me and tell me so.
Don't be a coward and spam my blog without using your name.
And I think your motive is to have me being angry right?
But so sad, you all failed to do so.
I'm not even abit of angry.
Try harder next time. :)
I am not childish and I don't entertain.

Oh, crap la can.

I was so dumb today,
I realise that sch only starts at 8.40 for today when I was alrdy at my halfway.
It was only like 7 plus when I was walking.
So, I walk back home again, to have some slp again.
-____-

Training was okay.
But the T-I-R-I-N-G part was the running test.
And I ran 60 laps up and down the court for 12mins.
Should have reach 62 laps, but i gave up in the last one min.
How dumb, and now I feel so regretted.
I suck at running. -___-

Shaggg.
It had been 3 days since I last met you.
It had been 4 days since we last talk on phone.
I got a feeling that everything is ending real soon.
But just a call from you, and everything won't be ending.
Every post, I would always be writing.
"Hoping that Your picture will appear in my phone soon."
I pray and hopes for it.
Don't make me feeling like letting go of the love,
feel like forgetting You.



Am I dumb to still wait?;
XOXO♥ || 9:43 pm

"I wrote it down, just because it's hard for me to say it out..."


It was a boring day for me.
Went home early as there's nth to do.

Was on someone's blog the afternoon.
And I was practically reading back on her past past past posts.
I don't know why I did that.
Maybe curious about them in the past?
-____-
It sounds so random.
But, I found out a lot indeed.
Well, he is a good boyf before while she is not a good girlf.

Went to court afterwards,
and I didn't play any matches.
My hands are itchy laaa. -__-

And there's training again tmr.
Hopefully it will be the last one before CCA stands down for exams.
Is either tmr or next week.
Running!

Kiamin, I was happy that you came to talk to me about your feelings.
I don't know why. But i appreciate it.
I am always there for you, come to me if you need listening ears or whatever. :)
Cheer up and make this relationship a strong one.
I know you can and you will. <3

I just wanna pick up the phone,
punch in your phone number,
press that call button
& listen to Your voice once more.
Or type a msg and send You.
Can I still do so?
Or will Your picture still appear on my phone?
Are everything going back to the lastime?
Are everything ending?




I wrote it THREE times, means it's real;
XOXO♥ || 10:06 pm

I was lazy to blog, but there's nth to do anymore.
And I went to slp when I reach home today.
So dam tired.

Sch begins today.
So, had training.
And playing GK with Jamie was fun though.
But, was punish by 3 suicides after the game.
Cos the game was a lousy one to Coach.
Running KILLS! D:

EOY is coming up next.
Another 2 weeks more or so.
Need to chiong abit alrdy. -__-
And I must pass my every sub this time. :)

I was feeling shag, was feeling a little down.
I don't know why.
But seriously, I misss You this time.
I misss your phone calls this time.
As much as I like You, I can't show.
Cos, You won't ever like me back.
I hope Your picture appears at my phone sooon. :C



nuhsha, ILY ;
XOXO♥ || 12:45 am

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.
The unlucky 8: Trina, Yuhling, Jonea, Kiamin, Atiqah, Raihan, Nadiah, Anyone :D

01. What have you been doing recently?
Homeworks and going out.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Yeah.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
Zzzz.

04. When did you last cry?
Today. -__-

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
Yeah?

06. What do you want in your life right now?
HAPPY-NESS.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
Just walk or run in the rain. :)

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Blanket and bloaster.

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
gd nite.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
For what?

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
Nope.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Wall-E.

14. What are you proud of?
Myself.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
dumb.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Back at one.

17.Do you have any nicknames?
Nut?

18. What does your last received text message say?
Thanks.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
2 plus.

20.Are you currently happy?
Normal.

21. Who gives you best advice?
Whoever,

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
-__-

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
Lin Lao Family. :)

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
Not really.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
AhKel :D

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Nope.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
Zhenyu :)

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Duh!

29. What annoys you most in a person?
Being irritating?

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
I don't know.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Nope.

32. What is the colour of your room?
White.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Nope! -__-

34. Do you believe in the saying of :"talk is cheap?
Huh?

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
Sister.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Forget.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Forget.

38. Do you have a life?
Of course laa.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
Nope?

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
I don't know, but i think its nice. :D

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
I swear, it was him.

42. Last time you smiled?
Just now.

43. Have you changed this year?
Yeah.

44. What are you listening right now?
Nothing.

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
Nope.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open la den?

47. Is there a quote you live by?
Nope.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
I don't know.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Yes.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
Forget.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
Talking on phone.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
I don't have any love life...

53. What song best describe your love life?
No song :D

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
I don't know.

55. Who always make you laugh?
Everyone.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yes.

57. favourite website(s)?
A lot laa.

58. What's your middle name?
Tan?

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Sch, training, court, home. :)

60. What do you think you are like?
Human.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
I don't know.

62. Where have you been today?
Vivo.

63. What game do you play often?
I don't play game.

64. Who are you missing right now?
I don't know?

65. If you have to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose?
Friends.

66. What are you doing right now?
This quiz.

67. Which primary school are you from?
Xinmin.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Green, yellow, grey.

69. What emotion you like to show?
:D

70. What is your life to you?
Precious.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Tell someone?

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Kiamin :D

73. Who do you admire most?
Erm?

74. Which month are you born in?
March.

75. How are you feeling right now?
Sian.

76. What is the time now?
1259.

77. what kind of person do u think the one who tagged u is?
Shu, Prettty :D :D :D

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
I nvr dye my hair.

79. Why are you doing this test?
Shu ask me to.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
Don't know?

81. At which age you wish to get married?
Before 28?

82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
Friends.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
Spend time with friends and everyone.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
Friends.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Somehow.

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
To be with him.

87. What is your goal for this year?
Pass my EOY.

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
Nope?

89. What feeling do you love most?
Being happy and contended.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
Yeah.

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
Being cheated.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Of course la....

93. Do you believe in God?
Somehow?

94. Who cares for you most?
Close ones.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My heart.

96. What will you bring when you fight?
Water gun. LOL!

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
A lot. D:

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
SAD.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
Send them to hell. :D

100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
Still very very sian.


Thanks ah, Shu. :) :) :)
XOXO♥ || 12:32 am

XOXO♥ || 1:24 am

I got nth to do at home,
so I came here to blog.
When my plan was not to blog today.

Okay,
I was stuck at toilet again for like 1 hour.
So, I skip training in the end.
Heeh, pon it. :D :D

So, met up with Zhenyu.
And we didn't stuck at Hg.
Went to Compass instead.
Met the others at point,
chat awhile and went home.
Rain was the spoiler today. -___-

Tmr's plan was cutting hair with Zhenyu,
after that den had lunch at Yoshinoya.
Kiamin is coming tooo :D
Alrighttttt, shall have a nice slp now.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.




I had left nothing to say, but just to wait for Your love.
But I knew something earlier on, that You won't ever love me back.
It's alright, in the end I will still be letting go of the love I had for You;
XOXO♥ || 12:34 am

Back At One

It's undeniable that we should be together
It's unbelievable, how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don't know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I'm for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal
(Yeah-ah...)

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
And four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I'll start back at one
(Yeah-ah...)

It's so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would've made it very far
'Cause you know you got the keys to my heart
'Cause...

Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time


New song for my blog, and there's the lyrics.
Wanted to change a new skin too.
But nth caught my eye.
Next time then.

Shouldn't have gone for Emaths class today.
Worksheets, worksheets and MORE worksheets.
It's like as if I am having a month holiday.
Shag -___-
I don't want to stuck at NUMBERS.

Had a great laugh at court with Kiamin and Zhenyu.
By listening to what An and Mao talk, can be crazy.
LOL.
And I swear I miss the family, the team now.
Shall be we go out one day happily? (:

There's netball tmr,
and I can't wait to see the three girls' BANGGGSS!
Friday will be friendly matches all the way till 5.30pm.

Even though things might end or what.
But sth I still want to let You know,
as I mention before.
You are the most happiest thing that ever happen to me these past 3 months or so.
ThankYou (:




Your love, is all I ever wanted.
XOXO♥ || 10:45 pm

"I swear, I misssss this boy right now..."


Kelvin Chua Jia Rong,
You better faster faster come back from your Genting.
The absence of you is so without the daily laughter we had.
Your zeh miss you too, right Kiamin?
FASTER GET YOUR ASS BACK!
Lin lao di <3

There's alot alot of homework undone.
I'm so lazy to touch laa..
And both maths are driving me crazy.
I hate NUMBERS! D:
Tmr still got Emaths lessons. -___-
CHIONG X3

I scared that one flick of time, everything will be gone.
I like You, really I do.
But, I just had to keep inside me.
Wait till one day, You do fall for me.
If there's a You in my heart,
no matter how long it takes, I will still wait.
Until one day, everything comes to an end.
And, deep down I alrdy got this thinking, that You won't ever fall for me.
Cos I don't suit you.
It's okay for me.
Maybe just let my feelings fade.




Thanks for the goodbye wave tonight :)
XOXO♥ || 10:25 pm

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