After 15 days, I finally get to see You.
And just nice, it falls on the 26th too.
Even though is just like 2 sec glance and a few minutes of being there.
I'm still happy to still have the chance of seeing You.
But at the same time, my heart is trembling very very fast.
I feel awkward, sad on seeing You.
I don't know why.
I didn't have the chance to even stare at You,
didn't have the chance to see You going away.
I'm fucking down after You left,
the unbearable feeling inside.
I can't bear that You just left like that.
I wish You could have been there for a longer time.
I wish I really could turn back the time.
I really want back the last time,
when everything is right in place.
When there's nth in the way of us.
When all I knew was to make You happy.
And all we have tgt is only happy moments.
I miss those phone calls and smses.
I miss the times when we talk craps.
I miss Your care towards me.
I miss those times we slack tgt.
I miss the last time when we at void deck slacking.
I miss those movies we watched.
I miss those days when we were out tgt.
I miss seeing You play basketball, esp at the free-throw line.
I miss seeing You play pool.
I miss Your clumsiness.
I miss the time when we spent at East Coast, esp at the rock.
I miss the time when we were at Queensway.
I miss those pictures we took.
I miss the night we spent tgt before my Cambodia trip.
I miss the day when we were at Pasir Ris.
I miss the day when we were cycling.
I miss the day when we celebrated Manfred's bday.
I miss the 1st time and the 2nd time.
I miss Your smile.
I miss Your goodbye wave.
I miss calling You JW.
I miss calling You dumb.
I miss the nights when I miss You most.
I miss You like I nvr before.
I just fucking miss EVERYTHING that relates to You.
And I jolly well know everything will nvr come back.
It's okay.
Cos I don't care if it's forever, but at least I once had everything.
And now, there's won't be anymore.
I said let go,
but I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over.
You're really gone.
It's like a shattered glass.
There won't be a chance to fix it back nicely.
If there is, there would still be cracks on the glass.
It will nvr be the original glass that has nvr been broken before.
And now, I should learn to give up and let go.
Shouldn't still hold on to the feelings.
I've grown and become more stronger.
So one day, defintely You would be out of my heart.
Lastly, Thank You for everything,
and I'm really sorry for what I've done.
Will there be another time of seeing You?
XOXO♥ || 2:48 am