Today training was 0k.
I was dam happy that we didn't run 2.4.
YAY!
Then do court craft until like dying.
With Jocelyn somemore, no one to sub T.T

Went to see Yl and Jo cut hair,
stone at the salon for 2 hours plus -__-
And I decided not to go to work,
Thanks Teck Heng for working for me :)
Coool enough, I'm going to shop and to COUNTDOWN!
Poor Shu have to countdown at HOME.
Don't be sad, Julia will always love you.
HAHAHA!

Last day of 2008,
cherish.
And after that, everything will become zero.
Ok, byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
XOXO♥ || 5:42 pm

Hi peee-pos.

I was running in and out of toilet this morning and couldn't make it to training.
Feeel so terrible -_-
Went to meet Shu and two small kids for lunch and phone selling.
So catch Yes Man in the end.
Was funny la, worth it :)
Better than Bedtime Stories.

Sch gonna open soon.
Damn sian.
I'm feeeling so dread. -__-
I still want holidays T.T

Sometimes things is just not fair.
I must be mature enough.
Nvm, if there is, it will be.
If not let it be.
CHEEEEEEEEEEEERS!
XOXO♥ || 1:33 am

2008 is ending in another 3 days,
and 2009 is coming.
But what I am looking forward to is counting down with the girls :)
COOL :D

Ok, so I've been working 5 hours for today.
Have a lot a lot of fun during work.
And I'm gonna chiong 10 hours straight for tmr D:
Ok, God blesss me.

I'm glad,
at least I know you cared.
Thanks :)



All these while, what I miss most is YOU;
XOXO♥ || 1:55 am

MERRY CHRISTMAS AGAIN!
Spent the day at Trina house,
mahjong-ing, watch her play warcraft, watch tv and slack.
CARISSA LIED TO US, well done. -__-
Dinner at Jonea house there, and watch Little Nyonya at her place too.
Was playing and taking video after the show,
GO JONEA BLOG SEE VIDEOS! :)
Trina, I will love you like how to Santa love the kids.
Muahs :)

Actually I got nth else to say la.
Tmr working until close.
T.T
I'm tired.
Ok, byeeeeeeeee.




Dearest Santa, my wish was to see Him;
XOXO♥ || 12:41 am

MERRRRRRRRRRY CHRISTMASSSSSSSSS!

Miss the countdown ytd night, but nevertheless we went to have some Christmas's atmosphere.
Should have countdown on the phone with Trina, Yl and Jo. T.T
Everyone was spraying the foam thing and ribbon,
and what we all do is to SIAM only.
Regret nvr buy any cans -__-
It was fun in the end :)

And ya, carnival was alright la.
There's like another Daisy Tan carnival coming up,
then our biggest N-Zone.
Jy girls.

I didn't know why I went,
all I know was my heart wants to see you.
Thanks for speaking up for me, for telling whatever I'm feeling.
I dk how this will go on,
but I know, friends will be better.
I don't want to be regret of things or be upset cos you fail to do sth.
And you got no one to be worried about, isn't it.
Thankssssssssss.




Dear Santa, could You grant me my wish tonight?;
XOXO♥ || 1:36 pm

Trainings was dam tiring today.
And I manage to finish 2.4 for the both days, slowly :)
Tmr will be a mini carnival again.
JYJY.

I'm going to PL Christmas party ltr.
Ok, I'm excited :)

Stop lying to me,
stop treating me this way,
stop saying that you don't even care.
I don't want to hold on, but I can't bear to leave.
Why I'm like that now?
I thought I was damn brave back then?
-____-
Why did you come along between us?
FUCKING SPOILER, FUCKING BITCH, FUCK YOU.
XOXO♥ || 9:58 pm

Day at Isetan outlet was kind of fun la.
But I enjoy it more at Hg.

I won't regret after what I've told you.
Cos I did treasure once, with all my heart.
I did put in my 101% in this relationship before, even if it's only for two days.
And I did love you dearest-ly.
So I wouldn't be regret of ath.
Like what Shu said is right.
I should just let go of everything now.
Your mei mei is the dearest to you, isn't it this way?
It's just another goodbye.
You get what you wished and wanted alrdy right?
FUCK YOU BITCH! -__-





Never give up, never backdown, never lose faith;
XOXO♥ || 1:37 am

There's training tmr.
I should be in bed now.
Even though there's no seniors to set the team up.
I believe those passionate juniors will back us up.
And no matter what, Bowen Netball, this team will nvr go down.
Just had the belief in each and everyone.
I believe everyone had a passion for netball,
everyone wanted to play their best, that's why there's BOWEN NETBALL.
Not because of how others look or think of us, but just because of everyone in the team.
Do our part, and keep this team going, till the end.

Well, that 'sand' theory told by Yvonne is really meaningful.
No pointing holding on you when what I know that you needed is them,
and esp your hao mei mei.
I shouldn't have gone down to meet you all just now.
I didn't know why things will turn out this way.
I don't need any explanations, I just believe what I saw.
Now then I regretted not heeding Shu's advice at first.
I was deeply hurt.
Gnd and fuck you bitch _l_





It takes a few mins to fall in love,
but a few years to forget about someone;
XOXO♥ || 1:34 am

Tmr will be the friendly against St Nicholas.
Jy.

Thanks PL crew, I am enjoying each day of work.
:)

Ok, for the whole of this part is for myself.
I really really really love you dam much,
even more then my 140707.
But no matter what, I just can't express it out.
I just can't let you know.
Because I don't want to really really rely on you that much and in the end when I wanted or you wanted to leave, it's dam hard.
And I don't want to fall for you any deeper, same goes to you.
Because every relationship, there will be an ending.
I wanted to save this relationship as much as you wanted.
But I really can't make myself to do it.
And I only let you get upset and feel hurt.
I'm really sorry but there's no more choice left.
I only wanted to see you happy and not worried this or that.
Sorry for treating you dam coldly.
I just have to take precautions.
Thanks for putting up with my nonsense and my coldness.
Thanks for all those past months.
I really can't deny anymore,
Deep down in my heart, I truly love you, S.
I wanna give you the very best, I wanna treat you best.
I wanna make you smile and happy each day.
I just wanna love you whole-heartily.
I wanna treasure and cherish you so much and I don't ever wanted to let go.
But it's all too late.
I miss you D:

Yup, I admit.
I didn't love you bravely enough this time.
Because I myself scared that it will be another heart-break.
Sorry.
Let fate decide us.
Life is short.


I still alot more to say, but I think the rest I should keep it inside my heart.
Ok, I ranted enough.
Read all those if you are SMART!
:D
Goodnight.
XOXO♥ || 1:31 am

Went for Norman and friends' chalet ytd.
But only stay over for one night, and left this morning.
Reach home and SLP :)
Left to meet Shu that idiot at 3plus for lunch.
And to work.

Tmr going sch for sec 1's training.
Then Wed will be friendly.
Alright, looking forward to it.

Happy 1 year 8 months dearest :x
Oh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAN HAO!
Celebrated it tgt with the rest of PL crew just now.
Was heart-warming yeah.

Ok, I'm alrdy satisfied with everything I got.
So let me tell you this instead,
I'm sorry but I don't need a YOU anymore in my life.
There nvr been once that I really treated you preciously.
Except in the past, I treasure you.
Everything changed, me too.
Take care.



So near, YET so far;
XOXO♥ || 12:52 am

Trina, Jonea and Yuhling is away.
Ps me and Shu D:
How sad.
And I have to pei Shu for movie today!
Watch Bolt. Ok, it's nice.
I want Yuki Yaki bufffffet soooooon, ok girls!

Fri's training was abit slack.
Concentrate mostly on centre pass.
Have lunch with the juniors, then met Shu, Jo and Yl.
Shu was crazy the whole day.
Ok, and we aren't inconsiderate on bus -__-

And was out with Pepper Lunch crew last night.
First outing tgt.
Catch The day the Earth stood still.
Was boring la, I fall asleep.
And Joshua have to wake me up -__-
I can't believe that I actually walked 45mins from Amk to home.
WOW. It was cool, tgt with the crew.
Ok, I'm starting to love them alrdy.

Hey girl.
I didn't comment or voice out on anything so far.
Why should you have to?
And why would you want to show me all kinds of hand signs?
You think is so cool to do at public places? Omfg.
Leave a little face for yourself.
Mind you, ppl around are watching at you.
Nvm, it's a freee world in the end.
So I shouldn't have even post this.
WHATEVER.
Last reminder, grow up.
-_________-

For you,
I guess I have left nth to said?
You don't have to think about me, cos is your choice in the end.
And after you make up your mind, let's not see each other anymore.
It's okay for me.
Cos even if you nvr consider it first, I would have alrdy have point out.



Is it a wrong choice after all?
I thought everything will be fine when there's you?
Fuck everything then.
XOXO♥ || 11:24 pm

There's training again tmr.
And next wed will be friendly with SNG.
Ok, jiayou.

Why this time round is me who is trying to love you so hard?
Where is the pinky promise we made?
Does it still exist?
D:
XOXO♥ || 1:28 am

Why is it that YOU could have the every chance, even until now?
I seriously super hate YOU.

FUCK FUCK FUCK.
GND.
_l_
XOXO♥ || 1:39 am

100th post.
It should be like more than that, cos I deleted my blog few months back due to some stupid skin problem. -__-

Running plan failed.
Because that alarm clock failed to wake us up.
Hai, Shu try harder :)
Went for mahjong instead.
Yes again. Singapore is small la. -__-

There's training tmr D:
I don't want run.
Coach gonna come back ya?
Sian.

And ya, I don't need your accompany everyday.
I just need your trust towards me than her.
I hope there's a tian chang di jiu.
Will we?
XOXO♥ || 1:29 am

Went over to Trina's house today.
Mahjong with Shu and Jo, a few rounds only la.
Cos guai nu er, ShuTing needs to be home early :)
Then I was pet-ing all the way until 10 plus.
Supper, back home.
I'm kind enough to took 74 with Jo, right?

I'm going to chiong pet society and win that Jeslin.
She's an idiot.
Play not even one week, lvl higher than me. T.T
Then ltr watching Miss no good :) :) :) :)

Tmr have to wake up early for run.
D: D: D:
Shu will be my alarm clock tmr, no need scared.
:)
Okay, till here.
Goodnight.
XOXO♥ || 12:43 am

Carnival was indeed tiring.
Umpiring was cool, seriously :)
And one of the GD really pushed me like.....
and becos of this, I lost the ball.
And that umpire was stupid enough not to blow for pushing instead for out ball.
WELL DONE. Forget about it.
Have to put more effort in my shots, put more effort in trainings.
Wed will be training again.

Isetan outlet was cool, and there's plenty of nice staffs :)
The captain there is WOWOWOWOWOWOW! :DD
Had been working non stop this week, I only off at thurs.
And tmr have to chiong for 10hours. -__-
DYING T.T

Sch is re-opening.
Sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz la.

If you really love me,
set me free.
And if I come back to you,
it's means we are meant to be tgt.
One phone call is enough alrdy, I don't ask much.
Just want you to be happy.

Okay, that's alll.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
XOXO♥ || 11:15 pm

Catch Wildchild with Zhenwei just now.
Not bad ah.
Went around town and have a FREEEEEE drinks at starbucks.
Cos they having Christman thing la.
Yo, thanks for today.

Happy Birthday LZY.
I didn't know why I did all those.
But, I followed my heart says so.
Tc.

Tmr is carnival instead of training.
Was inform last minute.
Abit sian la, but no matter what oso must play.
So, jyjyjyjyjy.
Like Trina said, she wants get in 2nd round. :)

Ok, bye!
XOXO♥ || 1:38 am

Felt jealous, sad, unfair, fuck-up upon seeing your blog.
I don't know why, but why can't I have things that I wanted.
You all are enjoying, isn't it?
Very good then.
To them, my impression is alrdy fucking spoilt.
WELL DONE :)

Ok, whatever.
I don't want to rant anymore.
That's it.

Training were dam tiring.
Did circuit thing for two trainings alrdy.
Seriously, killing.
Physical was like -_____-
Coach, faster come back :)
There's training again on Fri.

Work was fine with the crew around.
I enjoy it la.
And thanks to someone.
Thanks for this j.
Thanks for everything.
Thank you very much :)

I admit, I really really love you dam much.
But I just don't want show it.
If you think is too tired for you,
tell me, you could leave anytime





The yearning to see him dearly;
XOXO♥ || 3:54 am

Intend to go Bugis again with Shu today.
But no, we were at Dhoby.
Bought my bag at Amk, alright that was what I aim for like superrrrrr long.
Was bored at Dhoby until Trina's msg came.
Met her, stone awhile and went back Hg.

Went for work.
I got diao by one stupid fucked up auntie.
Cos she wants another bowl of rice, then I asked her queue.
Is rules what, I no wrong.
She said that she is just going to get another bowl of rice, I'm not going to queue.
Then I stare at her, she turn back and diao me.
WELL DONE. -___-
And was shocked to see you and your gf and the rest here.
I don't deny that I really miss you.
But hey, last long is what I could say now.

I know I'm not treasuring,
I don't want another heart break, don't want another sad ending.
I know I'm selfish but sorry.
Maybe you really met the wrong person.
I only know, it's gonna end soooooooon.
Wherever you may be, just tc of yourself.

Another 30 more days and 2008 gonna end D:
XOXO♥ || 1:56 am

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